Wednesday, May 30, 2007
Been a long time since I've even dropped by my own blog to check it out. This is my entry after about close to 1 month. Well, this month of May, it has been a good and bad one.
For the good, well, my best friend/buddy/joker/crapper/jaja Bro Benny got into CHC's Emerge Finals! For the record, it'll be his first time singing in front of a crowd (mind you, SOLO AH!). That's not all, he'll be competing for the top spot in the church to win the K Ge Zhi Wang title. Good job brother! Keep it up and i'm looking forward to see you perform, dude. You've got my support all the way!!
My mum's and dad's birthday were both in May. But I only managed to celebrate my mum's only. Cos I was in camp on my dad's day! But no matter what, I admit I'm blessed to be born in this family, this home. There's no where I feel like going after a long week in camp. I've got no way to describe the feeling but it just warms my heart whenever I unlock my gate and step into my house. The smell of home is just so different. If you have never appreciated the feeling of coming home, time to imagine how it's like to be away like 5 days in a week. Spending only 2 nights each week at home. Like it? Not.
Oh, my battalion's FTX (Full Troop Exercise) is over. Finally.. Though it had passed, which I'm supposed to feel happy. But due to unforeseen circumstances, the month ended on quite a low note.
Family problem? Nah, all's well.
Financial problem? Alright, still coping well.
NS problem? Couldn't be better.
Relationship problem? You've hit the nail. Right on.
I don't know what happened. I know I shouldn't have treated my girl the way I should on last Saturday. But I just didn't know why I did it. It might have been the FTX that was coming up the following week. But looking back, I saw no point in treating her the way I did. I've already broken her heart..
It's been a tormenting week and way to end the month. Definitely not the way I want it to be. And I made it worse after admitting to a lie. It's been so messed up after that sms..
Heart shattering? Totally..
I don't know.. I'm lost.. It's been a long time since I felt so lost. If you, my dear, read this..
I just want to say I'm sorry. I can't say anything more. I don't want to say more to make things worse. I know I've hurt you. I know you're absolutely disappointed in me.
If you prefer to keep a distance from me, I will not blame you. For it was me who did you wrong.
But if there's any chance of having you in my arms again, I'll await..
AwaitingAwaiting, it pains me.Pain, it's stabbing.Love, it's sweet.Sweet, sweet poison.Why await love?The sweetness.Why wait upon sweet poison?Because you know not till you've loved.But pain?With life comes pain.The pain to lose someone dear.The pain to be hurt by someone dear.The pain to know you've hurt someone dear,Yet, unable to take the hurt away.Except, await.Awaiting the hurt to heal.
♥ kC was here, 10:53 PM.
